As I sit here on the couch waiting for the ball to drop, watching Connor smile in his sleep and listening to Mike and Moira snoring in the recliner already ( it's only 10:15!) I can't help but think about this year in review. There were a lot of tears this year. Some happy, some I wish I could bottle and keep forever, Connors first "real" tears, my own tears of joy when I held my wee man for the first time.... but mostly sad tears.... tears of absolute heartbreak....of loved ones lost in ways I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy..tears of anger, despair, and fear.
How do you tell your 3 year old there are no such things as monsters when you know that isn't true? When you've watched a loved one have to stare down the worst kind of monster there is...the one who didn't care enough to stop... The monster who went on to Burger King to get a bite to eat and left my beautiful cousin where she lie and shattered the lives of everyone who loved her.
How do you make the call home and tell your mom that the navy isn't sending us back to VA like I had hoped. That instead we will be moving her grandbabies further away?
2009 was not kind to so many people I love and care for. It is hard to find bright spots but we were fortunate to be blessed with an amazing new addition to our family this year. Connor is our sweet little man and we love him so. We are all healthy and happy. We are days away from embarking on our biggest adventure to date, our move to GA where Mike will be going back on a boat and I will be a "real" navy wife(Shore duty doesn't count. lol). Oh and of course our dear girl has become such an amazing wee little thing. 2009 was the year Moira found herself. All the nonstop chatty, deliciously curious, go go go, & fun a mommy could ask for. She's such an amazing child and I feel so lucky that I am the one who gets to be her mommy.
As 2010 looms closer I am excited to face the beginning and hope that this will be the year for peace, joy, and happiness for so many who deserve it. Many wishes for a happy new year to you all. It is now 11:30 and time for me to wake up Mike and Moira and ring in the new year with those whom I love more than anything. <3

Apologies and Christmas wishes

I hope this post finds all of my friends and family doing well and happily busy with Christmas preparations. My apologies for not updating like I should be. We've been so super busy getting ready for Christmas and are still adjusting to being a family of four. Connor is doing wonderfully. He is such a sweet lil guy. Moira is still head over heels in love and wouldn't trade her baby brother for anything. At least I don't think she would. lol
We are still in the process of trying to find a house in GA. Mike has to report to the new boat on Jan 12th so there is a slight chance that he will go down without us. We are hoping and praying that if that happens it won't be for to long. We have an offer on a house now but there are other offers as well and we're just waiting to hear if ours is the best. It's pretty stressful.
We are also super excited to be celebrating our first Christmas with Connor. It's amazing how just a few weeks ago I was wondering how in the world we would manage being a family of 4 and now I can't imagine how we were a family of 3. I am truly blessed to have such wonderful kids and an amazing husband who is my best friend and an amazing daddy. I couldn't do it without him.
My Christmas wish for you all is that you can be as happy as we are this Christmas. I will post more pictures soon. I promise to get Christmas morning pictures up as soon as I can. lol We love you all and miss you lots.